some inspiration for a tired & weary soul...

At long last! i finally felt alive lately. hehehe. really shallow of me!
i found this book . i first read it when i was in junior college. now i finally had a copy of my own!
its historical fiction. penned by Emily Hanlon. titled "Petersburg"
up to now, it still feels like i'm breathing the same air they are breathing. like 1905 was just yesterday & that i'm in St. Petersburg, marching with alexei,anna, irina, misha, zhenya.

as if, this year is not 2005. as if, i'm not living in davao city, the best place in southern philippines! (hehehe, luv ur own!) as if, the weather doesn't feel like hell.as if, technology at this pace, doesn't exist.as if, i understand a word of russian.as if, i experienced winter...sigh..and the "as if's" goes on & on.

when the author said that she felt like she just recounted her travels to those places in russia & the scenes are rembrances of the events & the people she met along the way(or something to that effect, i don't have the book while writing this :P) , it was very well said. i felt the same.

mind you, i always have this effect after reading a great book or watching a beautiful movie.& it sometimes last as long as i can remember...

But one thing never has never changed though, whether it's 1905 russia or 2005 philippines, the government sucks!

theopany c",)

Stupid
Sarah Mclachlan
Night lift up the shades let in the brilliant light of morning
But steady me now for I am weak and starving for mercy
Sleep has left me alone to carry the weight of unraveling
where we went wrong
And all I can do to hang on, to keep me from falling into old
familiar shoes

How stupid could I be
a simpleton could see
that you're no good for me
but you're the only one I see

Love has made me a fool set me on fire and watched as I
floundered
unable to speak except to cry out and wait for your answer
and you come around in your time speaking of fabulous places
create
an oasis that dries up as soon as you're gone
you leave me here burning in this desert without you

Chorus
Everything changes everything falls apart
I can't stand to feel myself losing control
In the deep of my weakness I know
Chorus