back to work since this monday...my mum is my babysitter for the meantime...hehehe
i have a hard time looking for a proper babysitter.

i gave birth last September 02, 2006
amidst the comotion at the delivery room, the only time i felt peace was when i saw my baby's face for the first time
he was still bloody and all, but he was so beautiful.i felt myself letting go of all the pain i've went through since 2 am in the morning.

By God's grace, matthew is doing well and he weighs heavier each day now
i miss him a lot everytime i go out, but i know he's in good hands.

August 31st

still pregnant...i'm due this sunday, Sept.03...
but of course, it could extend to another 2 weeks before i give birth
so help me God...

my hubby in town for his cycle meeting at the office.my spirits are up...but i'm thinking more about giving birth and all.
my mom gave me this book about pregnancy and stuff and some things written there are either scary, amazing or jaw dropping...
oh, the things women have to go through in her life...

can't wait to see and hold my baby though..God is good.He is merciful and kind
May He grant me loads of grace and mercy.strength and perseverence.Amen

august 1st

the only constant thing in this world is change...& i've been going through so many changes almost everyday.
my body is tired, the baby is getting heavier each day.lower back pains, leg cramps, headache's, spasms in my tummy & manageable contractions..all normal signs of cradling life within.

a month to go & i'd be a new mom..what would life be like? i often wondered..all i know, is that, it won't definitely be a bed of roses.more like a bed of thorns though...hehehe

i'd be humming lullabyes, making sure no mosquito bite's him.check on his diapers, so on and so forth...
potty train & wean him by six months, teach him nursery rhymes and other baby games, teach him to talk & walk, send him to school by 3 years old, send him to my sister to learn piano by 7, so on & so forth...

so easy to conceptualize...but really tough to do...

So help me God.

week 32

• transition from 7th to 8th month of pregnancy
• able to establish routine at my parents house
• my hubby in town for his cycle meeting with main office
• hot weather! very sunny in the morning & it rains like hell by late afternoon
• post drama with mom in law

sigh...life goes on.

Updates for the week

• after spending the weekend together, my hubby left last wednesday for Cagayan de Oro City. He'll be back by the 1st week of August 2006 for their cycle meeting at the office...sigh
• i'm 7 months pregnant now
• 1 week of living with parents
• this may sound so shallow, but i really enjoyed dinner & delivered breakfast c/o McDonald's with my hubby...hahaha! i'm lovin it!

phases

I'm going though so many phases right now.
i'm still not what you call a grown woman and yet in three months time i'm going to be a new mother.
my hubby got a new job and new work pressures to deal with. meaning less time with me so,everyday gets lonelier.
i have a job i go to everyday, but being pregnant and all doesn't permit the privileges of going home late, had a night cap with my favorite tanduay on the rocks or go out with my single unmarried friends on some weekends & get wasted till the wee hours of the morning while listening to nonstop chatter on love, life & more love...

my neighbor just moved out of their house, and the other side of our house is a vacant lot. so whenever my hubby goes out of town for work, i have to stay at my mum's house, 7 kms. away.
now, the only thing i'm worried about is our dog. i have to leave her behind since, going through & fro my mum's with her in tow is difficult considering that i have to commute and all.

sigh..what a life!

What would you like to do today?

i've read somebody's blog today & he asks that question. he'd like to have a cup of coffee to wake up his soul first.
how i'd love to have some also, but since i'm 6 months pregnant, i'll just have to wait till my baby is born.
but what i'd like to do today, instead of sitting here at my desk at our office & waste company time, is to talk to someone i haven't seen for a very long time. whoever that person maybe, i'd like to fill in the gaps since we've been apart. to share the uncertainty of the future, to look back at the past & at present, to savor every moment we've spent.
to wake up tomorrow & feel refreshed ready to take up the loads of life where i left it yesterday