Happy New Year!

before this year ends, im taking a moment to think about all the things ive gone through...
good or bad,i wouldn't have them if i didn't need them...Thank God, i would not have been able to survive them all if not for his grace and mercy...
anticipating a new year feels like im on top of mount fuji facing the sunrise,wind blowing on my face...lyk, having a cup of hot coco snuggled in a blanket waiting for the dawn to emerge from the horizon...
i am praying for grace, His constant grace...that's all i need for the coming year.

Hello stranger...

there you go again...
poppin' in my dreams just like that.
i barely knew you and yet nature
has always had a way of letting me know that
you still exist.all those glimpses of you, in your red beetle, in the taxi,
at the mall, at the university streets...
and now in my dreams...sigh.
I do get the feeling that when i get home during the holidays, i'd see you again...
whatever it is, i wish that you would serve the purposes by which you live...
see you around stranger...

love..love...love

Anne Morrow Lindbergh writes:

People talk about love as though it were something
you could give, like a armful of flowers.
and a lot of people give love like that-just dump
it down on top of you, a useless strong-scented burden.
I don't think it is anything you can give

Love is a force in you that enables you to give other things.
It is the motivating power. It enables you to give strength
and freedom and peace to another person. It is not a result;
it is a cause. It is a power like stream or electricity. It is valueless
unless you can give something else by means of it.

-Locked Rooms and Open Doors

A year older...

A year older
just turned 28 last tuesday and i couldn't be more thankful
for all the things that came my way.
it may not be the fulfillment of my dreams
but im still thankful for my blessings everyday :)

i don't know...

i don't have any idea what title to put in.all i want to do is to compose what's in my mind.
Back here in davao to spend Holyweek with my family..matthew's going 7 months old tomorrow...maybe we'll head for the beach this coming saturday.people is not as conservative as before when black saturday is observed as in the ancient times.where ur not supposed to do anything but observed it and keep it holy.

lucky to be back home though.Thanks be to God.
i miss the water here and the air.my family,the familiar streets,the feel of being in this city.Oh boy! how i love to be here again and feel the rythm & pulse around me!
it vibrates of life that i have been wanting for awhile now

not that cagayan is dull and dead...i just haven't got used to the way we lead our life there.and i don't want to sound like i'm whining all the time lest God punishes me for being so ungrateful & unsatisfied.

i'm actually lucky to be able to experience both cities.as they say that life is all about the experiences whether good or bad.

Be thankful for it, for it means that you are alive.

no place like home

it's been exactly a month now since we moved to this new city.
a new place, a new neighborhood, a new way of life with no family or friends readily available for either comfort or convenience...
we've moved north of my birth province and it's been such a wild ride since.having a 6 months old baby and in teething stage, plus a house and a dog to attend to, plus...plus..plus..sigh

cagayan de oro city is really different from where i came from...there's really no place like home.. :(

Year of the Pig

In the chinese calendar, 2007 is the year of the pig.
(my countrymen has a penchant for feng shui despite being a predominantly Christian nation.)and unfortunately it seems that i am slowly becoming a pig also!

standing short, with an already poor posture
plus weighing 63 kgs as of this morning, i am such in a depressing state!

i am so depressed i've finished off eating a 40g dark chocolate bar and starting on a new one hahaha!(as if that would help!)
i've read somewhere that chocolates with nuts/fruits in them makes you fat, that's why i'm sticking to the dark ones with bittersweet taste just to satisfy my craving. i don't know if there's truth in them

i don't want to measure every morcel of food that i eat, but i do want to be slimmer. i can't really go on a strict diet since i'm still breastfeeding...it must be those birth control pills that i'm taking, they must be making me fat?

sigh...what am i to do? my officemates always remind me to watch my weight since i'm already ballooning...even my dad had his comment...and this alarmed me since my dad never seem to mind anything in his household at all!
grrr...im sooooooo fat!

it also doesn't help that the weather here is so conducive to eating.it's been raining on & off again..we have chilly evenings & cold early mornings making me eat some more...sigh.

the mind is willing but the flesh is weak...hmmm
have to strengthen my will to control my eating then...

Bon Appetite! hehehe

A Brand New Year!

well, i haven't written anything for a long time now...it's not easy raising another individual with a mind of it's own, with hands that grab anything on sight and stuffs it quickly on his mouth lest someone sees it and take away his prize :)
it's not easy having to balance the role of wife, mother, employee, daughter, referee(hehehe, at home among siblings)
life is not easy...but it's still worth living...
another year has passed, a whole year of bittersweet life is at the offing.
it just depends on us if we take it or leave it.