Uninspired

today's not exactly one of my days. it hasn't been one of my best week so far too...since i turned 26 last sunday.
I feel useless, rotten, dejected...depressed. it feel's like i'm on my own in my own wretched world. my work is of no use. i need a certain amount of motivation to go on with my work...but maybe, just the thought of not having any work or money & be dependent on other people who will only treat you as dirtbag from day 1...now that should do it! That should get me back to my senses!
if only...
why am i always whining & fretting about my wretched life when the "taong-grasa" at the streets don't even give a damn about his! why can't i just be thankful for my life, for my job, for my family, for my hubby and everything! a hard life, it is! (maybe i should just see a shrink, no?)
i've read somehwere that "marriage should not be our sole source of meaning"
then what is? how long will it take for me to find out?
how long will i be blind?
maybe, i really need to see a shrink!