anger

I am angry!
And to be angry is human... as padme pointed out to anakin once.
I am angry at myself, at my hubby, at my mediocre life. and i know i'm being stupid for letting the whole world know, as if they give a damn at my pitiful state!

But this blank space before me & this blinking thing seems to be my only solace right now.
I can't even throw a bottle at the wall of my own domicile! what kind of life do i lead if i can't even do the things i want in my own home!
I do such thing. I always hurl my anger at the wall! i feel drowned if i don't feel the sound of lightning crashes.it always feel like hell at the onset of such pain & agony. a place where i have been many times before. maybe i should have my own wailing wall...what do you think dakila?

my life depresses me. I don't know when & how i'll get over this...but it has too end.
Before it's too late...